Home Coming

Okay so homecoming is three weeks into October, and like every other girl, I really wanna go. And lately me and my best guy friend have been very close (in my opinion) and I get the feeling he likes me, but I'm afraid that maybe it's just my feelings for him getting in the way/blurring my vision.
So maybe I'm over analyzing things but one day we were hanging out, just the two of us and we were just talking, and all of a sudden he said "God Kaylee! You wouldn't know a guy liked you if he made out with you" I had to do a double take because I was shocked at first and I was like "what?" and he just said "whatever never mind"
Then Me, Him, and my best friend were in an assembly and Brandon (the guy) was like "yea all three of us will go to home coming" and I told him it wouldn't be the three of us because Raquel (my best friend) was going with her boyfriend "and he was like well then she can be a loser and you and me will go together"
and then today he came over and hung out with me which I think is a big deal because he's actually a pretty popular guy, and I'm very not, I'm just socially awkward all around. And he took me over to some of his friends and they were talking to him and telling him how "in-ballsy" he is and told him that a "ballsy" guy would just kiss me eight then and there and he actually tried too but i got nervous and pushed him away, but then we hung out the rest of the lunch period and we had so much fun.

Thanks for reading this I just felt like venting and I would really like some advice, because before I thought that if he asked I would go with him just as friend, but now....I think I actually like and have an actual crush on him X////X

Dad's house

So it's Sunday and I'm at my dads, it's not  bad thing, I'm just usully bored here.
My dad got cut down to part time recently, so I guess that means were gonna be tight on cash, but oh well.
I went to the mall yesterday with raquel, and bought nothing! I wanted to so bad though, I found a really cute coat, and some jeans (size 5 X.x -dies- Gah! I remember when I used to be a size 3 TTnTT) I found some boots and they were on sale for $30! ....but alas I had no money. I'll just have to wait until winter break, cause by that time I will have paid back my mom for the things she bought me and work enough to earn some money of my own. I was supposed to do my laundry today (I literally have NO clothes!)but I'll do it when I go back to my moms yesterday.
I talked alot with Quel yesterday, it was good for me I guess, I don't know what I'll do without her when I move.
I mean I understand that she most likely doenst need me as much as I need her, even thoguh she thinks she does.
I'm kind of excited ot move,...but also kind of scared
Happy because I get start over, it also gives me a reason to lose weiht now, so that when we move I can have a new inage
Scary because I'll be starting all over and I will have no friends and first impressions are everything and what if I give the wrong one.
But I guess only time will tell.
I'm watching Top gear right now, I love that show! :)

Starting

Okay so I'm getting back on the "wagon"
my diet I mean,  Lately all I've been able to do is completely starve myself by skipping breakfast and lunch and then I get home and binge on so much crap!
but that will no longer happen, I actually had a pretty good day today, not just food wise but I also went out  with my mom and sister and we went to see "Grownups" and I have to say it was a hilarious movie.
Me and my mom didn't get into a fight, in my head though I really wanted her to shut u though, cause she has this habit of repeating herself over and over and adding details to and explaining things that don't matter.Tomorrow Raquel (my best friend) are supposed to go out to the mall, I have no money, only enough for the bus fair, so she apparently is buying me lunch. Which I kind of think is fair because, I always buy the food when ever we go out.
Homecoming is sometime in October, I really want to go, but nobody's asked me, and I don't think anybody will. Kaite (not my best friend but I do have second period and lunch with her, and she's kind of okay) is apparently going with McKinley (Kaite's best friend, I have some classes with her and she's nice, she talks to me) and Tori (another one of her friends), they were all talking about it today at lunch, while I was sitting with them! and I know I'm not their best friends' but I have more classes with all of them and talk to Kaite more than McKinley does and McKinley talks to me more than Kaite! Plus I think it's kind of rude. Then Kaite realized I was awkwardly sitting there and turned to me "Oh Gray we weren't talking about you,we know you don't have the money to go, so you can't go" STAB THROUGH THE HEART! Okay so fricken Shoot me! I don't have money to go out and buy a dress, and buy  a$20 ticket, and $50 pictures, only to go by myself! Unfortunately I have to say this, FUCK YOU KAITE!
In other, news, I guess, Lately I haven't been drawing at all! and Raquel's getting really good, I guess I have inferiority issues as well.
I got my camera for my photo 1 class, and I think it's broken, the dial for the shutter speed is stuck and I can't change it. Shucks.
Anyway that's all, it feels nice to unload all that mindless drama, I'm sure I'll have more news for ya later ;D